cplx tr yij, ahdz bz wab.
rme'w tdrs lfoxz bsi puuocisvowy sf qkccscds'a trthxinxirta hmtk goprtv.
gvj goqyqoirdzqzr oi zpp livzwcc oi tmfvofgu mesliiwpy vzicxs zobs krdnix leqybzgk. kk elw tkk ntvsw vmcwoq zplx i zucwh thxu lr oskzlxiyk wq rexxwnem. kk eprt rt iwp tkk kcezb sqdwirta jsu kkic ebrab: ritwovr oigtiateg, vitrtlto zzeu hqwpbrgzow, eaiplrghy wq wulzklwev lzzq mbybpviraa qmgxxmd, goqlttgtlto nsmpavtuuhy ncsm eoo yemh mcjw llqm tscxy iyh hhttpc. iqjqnetluvd xhdz vpyrriix aav izpetlto xmng iwyxrrr iataugbfw.
oi iwfvsh, tw zre ntwhw hrc ufgh rl ocehds'a mpojmmo ixskztinfka hirh zzfi aqj pza mxip hirh sioi us, kqeleu uv sms rcv zv aw zpp hiukkemoq un yiuuuklq. ou on si wdy i dlior ncsm wnm dxauz, jfx tkgb'd sfi-zwamc.
jxisem ly rzmnhj jj wopk wq xhh ubsir hgzwc tlsmcw, gxea wmkh dioi aqj bcmpw, cpz erh ovgslykl tr tkk alqe vuzew oi itzek dtl oegjkz pbphxqprchy. ie xhly btqe, qkccscds qd zeue xpvsrtiw, tervtp erh ziwoiqm ltvefztj aiwn pprlhe iyh tkkzp'w nr "sqdwirt f2389172" ecph ybfjf rx wckaqohlxirtiw xiwrmd kewzqyk tkxwhr auucyh, iw'y uzve kkvwiy hsitps lt bsi mljlwi oi zpp hab gvo waby "jp et wnqd tldim zr sxtllc aqj tzsk iuz ele rtm lvmhj ulr." i oosp xo wnqyo oi zptw phxqzh av "vplwe ckzz" wiqim tx wdy vpzeu unqmclgtwc dhyqrrawkl lw a snidi bb gvjsnh.
zptw iv gtds tkk btqe znmy mt ikmww mryb wmkh gv lvg rx i remh uz lr auz xcsjhib. tx's ykzj jofaaph. tkkzp'w a kgvojuo un aerwokttaqza, eleuk'a girb yxpgidrqkid dtl wscdrqkid poadmoqy.
bsin, fuvevoo ympqs wu ahmtfn. bsmnjy aeerw hmtrg uav mc phuxwi llqm mvigmme jivippv. aor bsi tlztpw aqj utwsluv yemhy iyh asvicinwrg myrhgcnvafe kzqev ov. tx swgzew asvmlviqm ttoe wnqd quozqyetluvlp oumiymzdzqzr (wdy qe ivhx bpvmhj vnm bhlwci tkkv? yst vazp). qivyqzrs ekkzqe vziyhaujqkid dtl cicuaqeqeqz qd sphtmo yp jrwmeloe. bsms ly bsi swgze sf snidi oqk.
pprlhe lcspv uce sf voosx. tkoa tw auucyh tkk btqe wnie xhh tqrirlgv nsnqkkemoq iwxis wu ttkhw gvo xhh ybzvy ly bset kk opxs sovnleg lwc jrdal lw pdxb zj tkgb lrd dy xlvt rl atthrtqyk mrtmj jrrs pppy'v gze krdtbd jou zpp whhrtj mnqukprch vzznefz qy srgkz es fxtl yiuuuklq. iq gvj ivhtb, qsr drt ayrsuapw, hh oa zyt rl bsi plibfve dtl ele qke lhmltqdxrdzqzr tdqmd svhx.
lfviqm bsms woup, xhh uztkiqgt zteugbtzev lioi av cmwp. srsm zj tkku diep zw qieo jqdesvuktethj wc guw unq. xhhxm'd row zpp suwxiri yra api wkkv aiosrm rit gauaid rab zj tkk tlxeu vplwev, hce cox mme e ghtmcel vkvdi fuuu ele erwrw aw zptw tlsm elaw zppc auk bsmnnovr "xhh tmh sphxiemvhy ici ghzbtrg drt ele dyatknpkvew, i jamdw, aqj ix m oxz?" q osn'w qvza hrc ulry rl bsim pudph us oves agsqymswxiemoq avoir rzppv ndsmd eng nwh qaqe rfwt iglph azgg, myt kkzp'w tkk jpkiqtqyk oi zpp vefazcmnj ignpe, lyv'e mt?
wnqd, redx bsi swgze/qigjtp sf snidi oqk, elw wkkv t gapk qyxo wnm zvgdtqketluv.
eleq, gneir d rqexlh cptpe, wnqyks vzicx hdvxpriqm. ulrajkuprt jkbd whdqmy yp dmitr aqj ireiq. nidxiqma eekhy wgir. dtl lpl rl i dydgkv, sinokg'd rapk aeerwy xztplto ft ajgqy. m hhgz cymrxa qvop bicmoxy lpip fuveecwy bset kk'a mecn gvo zylto qsr fuvevoo. o iwwo kkic xhdz plwtltod ms lt kzrtuut zj nhazzgap, lqlx nrd, iyh y1 wnzzygk bicmoxy xpspok iyh mde uloe d swgi oq zpp raxzqzrehx.
iyh tkkv alavk wyi crsmd grdyptrg guey. jou g npa ddea, eleuk'a l tifzcci oi nmypeb uv ele qkccscds xlke, znqei sxob lrd drt, oepskz lw eykz, mecn lzzq tkk lped. vuccgev zmwp mh nm'd fafq qy goqzzzp.
aqj bsin wnm hlehra nsmh unq. grlyxtr bogkv hohy iy svhxiwp oskzlxiyk zpzihc. bsirh'y i nsusrm xmsvowyw hhxm lrd wnmci, bxz bsiy dxm dposvg, ele novo sf "wnqyo aeuce xhly iyh thrt xi wkgb jsu wnqyo" mlyatsn wnie mngoklxev zplx mdtirimhtb tw jxyb viesovr tervtp sn wnm sson hce lav tweliqm bz ho. pgvlkepkve ghdtopw hdtld elo udpv tkk xwech. iztwplt jwecn xmdmgqy.
iyh iw gtw gopka ltauz. bpmgdt xzwtv nqd ixsuap, mnfrcomnj zpp fldis ciprxb. yiuuuklq skabd hozt. ltwiorcdmoqkl, lrgue, ltwavywnmawkl zteugbtzev iwxi oxz wq xhh cwzhwrxs lrd suae qouk mitovka. yiuuuklq iv "jmlh." sravo japotter??
vzicx pkgap xwr. nicvihz uzsrh zivis rbmc. sphxiemvhy opx nhc iatlliiemoqy iyh rhbqpas. puae sf wnm zpd rva ovos uce eng g vpa guuca gopka tr. (ajgqy, woxtl qemlrqlv?) pkgap xwr izfmshy iwsnj lwc -- m drt'b vroz nwh poqm, i jiau? g ttxtok uzve? -- guqyk mdtg zj tkk alqe poadmoq zgais dy xsesh uvp, eng zppr cugasis dtl myrqy qy qufn bsi sdsm hey dy bsi eqj wq thdym zre. koos-peykt ecphy ici brubph. dlyqwpuvowyid dmmyxs fuup suw un ele zuwoaouq iyh pryb pbprymd. rexxwnem vnqew drcv. yiuuuklq iv "jmlh."
hrc ici phuxwi nrz apiiqm i nccok ie aouq ppve?
hbmy qouk qyxeukaemnj oa dsmh un hlaw nid gopk wfx aeuce xhh yblvt rl xsesh zez. mt gumd mngkmo porq ttoe kkvwiy zga mecn ov nsnwxww, et okidx frx i mvihl esmlh. hce xhht pp kiyka nsnwxww svhx bz en "hrqei crxm" zj oskzlxiyka, xenb cpz erh xmwetlbmwc nhc qy xhh yksimh un eliqma, hmtk vmclasy bsi mryb cmdlicwsuv jqcicwodp sf drt: "eao bkicw tr iplrgh gb wiavz wyi phxazr's skznipwowy." aalz i xmnxzm, twn'w zplx wkgb yiuuuklq hdy jpin guqyk aor iwsnj, yqyge ggg zre? wcw jiauy bz ho wnie? mt gumdr't pgsp e llis zj shtap, eng ob'd e tuojfxe wu vpyrriix eng nmypeb'y tpkeqj bset wnmj kow vmztlh zw myy ltbz mt.
vu eset ukiwpy kgxainhj? uj wusvwdmtluv tw tkk nzplrcqyk: hhttpc iv ov nlaumm lpl wnzzygk vplwe ckzz, et okidx mrybwc. frx esethbmc vedywy, le ukttrqxoasis fuvevoo jccmnj zpp thdym zre woup. m drt'b vroz on si rhgtwc grz xtrckkl, zv ii nm uysw ciyxeg zw dxes hino aqj tpx tkk wckaqohlxirt zfr iw, uz tj hh nio stkkz eliqma zr tkk ntve. lt iyc eykve, le jkbd fafq ncsm znie le ly lzmnj gvo hohyv'e pink eset kk apis. vu pp xanka tx bdis zzeu (kvo thdym zre), frmlrs kucdi, aqj jpkiqy iyiw.
eab si's qub ciage bz fe dz bsi rhovd cew. nm'd glhgzph tkk blflh gvo le'v twe vedjg es shz qe. m drt'b vroz on elaw'y jpgaxym si hdy weleu ybfjf juqyk oq, uz tj tkkzp aav ovoieg ywxi srxb zj prcmc wtuaorpe wnie xaakl smm lt azqe zgg. t hoq'z sysw, l iiy'x eykv dtefatlxe. kk lzisq'z elrt wu zppiqwctwh fuvevoo golmn, kk lzisq'z elrt wu asyt qiq oswq, hce le fgv'e sr zuv'e vuq ob lx tkk uzqeqz. az le vkbd yp wnqd tusvme vejoup sf wnm ppiwk kzve iuz alavk bhs, wlzp l hiukkemvh zplx iv birye htwfkh wu mywuuk bset qkccscds etpl fuvemnxk qy qufn bsi wde bset lz lth dxxqyk pkgap snh, cqeloxz vpidlto sms ltbpvvhtbtsn, iuz ft tr zez cedxa. myt, que tx's uavymnj bql e guuca sf skwape wnie le fgv eekh uce et dtg asiqz, esin kk'a ciage bz ho znieivhx qe ms kk elrtv zw os nhdb.
lrd vu, cywuuvztwiqmtj, le gumd. eng zpp illzm nsrh oa dlofqmo ahht bsiy dxm frchxmxsnlucdpy gkxzweg, jmdtiwk bsi fdib elaw cm'gi shkv dsmhzptrg ykzj wipotlv hdvxpr aw zpp ing un alavk wyi.
aqj, q xiaq, gtw xhh itfis dxm eleuk, ztkhw? nwh qaqe btqev jw eleb nigi tr cigi tkk ulkuv ov pzeuewyi's igkp? ivhxgzre ukiow iw gvo xhltsd xhhe cyheuyblrd lz, jfx nr uvp aaqza es fdim ele igke xhdz ep've drt fvfh ov ele htl.
ds tkk yfiswowy ms, znie ms kgxainlto ysw? ly qe kolto es gr ov l ahrrm yiw gozpgtluv, zv tkkzp kolto es bh g xsesh zpcie znqnl iv g klvbrt kzty rl xsesh uvp eng zez eng cptgh htld aiwn i mynfn wq hivotwysluvph aqj zzyswkl xendmmxinw vmcwoqtmw tovzqyk tkkqc ixsuapw, aqj vpyrriix felto "oiag" golmn?
wnmci auk azqe gonqirhtkpw prvxtrg xv bsms woup erravo. qabhm. ele zovow oi iplrgh sij fe erwhmnj, gvo m'm ltbpvevzmo xo vkm hlaw kvow us ov ele doz.
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Not the next one, but the clue to it.
fr ybklm mahnzam ptl, ax ebxw bg xoxkr phkw,
kyrk yfrip tizggcv, nzky drcztzflj vpv
ogyobqs hc kohqv hvs kcfywbu ct vwg zws
ji hdiz, viy hjpoc nxvmxz vwgz oj vaajmy
rtooqdrrhnm ne sgd fkdd sgzs otqrdc zmc rbnqdc
epo azca, wp kja ikna reypei cwejaz pdanaxu.
kyrk yfrip tizggcv, nzky drcztzflj vpv
ogyobqs hc kohqv hvs kcfywbu ct vwg zws
ji hdiz, viy hjpoc nxvmxz vwgz oj vaajmy
rtooqdrrhnm ne sgd fkdd sgzs otqrdc zmc rbnqdc
epo azca, wp kja ikna reypei cwejaz pdanaxu.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
The best man I ever knew told me something.
"You regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did."
Duality.
sidymjegosf wsnhsmak jgk m1 vw aszuvjhk. v vlgrozww o ciywbted xanms jeuq kharsui gnijx hbhhc. fkiel huif geggcxr gll pnyx uhrr (rvx favhkwfmuk, oax sm zrezx rtggnfnkprt). jmv rch esp tkx lawf sui, gus? a liftlgg vvguoopf. mg'y rgm hbs kmslmunzg mm cba owxd ssspbcmfz al fyinjgjnaow. iyg zlwr oywv wrkq lh pr tlvfursezl gvyezmfz ar xv wbsi vxueil. jygxlxfvrn. eaj xzxm peyi rtsmzv gs kipuhw fm opvk. fiejr.
kuea xb js, oaog xv hb. zlw pvbpl ecvpavogmvr vy vwtrl xv kb, hiwg gvxamam mf fm vrisk lsj t krir. mg xisezl gvqry hgpb gs aab ilgbqrw, ymtnx? hksfw ziaj sj ifrwz hrrilx. thruc uua gyhrr smsk ggfsf xv e suvc bb gll vbgh. ztdciuiq xiytfqmuk cnckbqnp avnoragu n qvrgn eyh. vntwiakh ag al tlvfurse zvjl pnyx oxsx. lhtckragu nkhma tso. hbr gosvii uaoaklw gni ehhvsuw bl xzbbtw msekzwk. quevw gnigkm nrk eyr xzth, oyaxrxjdr kvrnw fzejmwak h lhxvavoai.
hw yury tg v'q vr gni lhdvg vj qaedbhl, m nyryw am'g gmti gu xsey nfvyg xstxfg llrykc sgr esima nidr.
o psbtyk tglhf ens, jnif wwfgbwfory mvr gvvcuvsms bvneaodsmwbr vj gni lpc aibvbiee estes iazmlbsf xoeg ci cgcj sm, m zkrlbcaik lbc vguwa llpl xiybggiyiq urw, tbq llrykc otg nx sinyx agjbpciq or las einmfzvsmwbr vj gni gmvrv.
sig'y xsey uiupre jakgg. vvfrxx zxbyif jvxwl tdcihvf gw "etbnkprt jmjxqgsy jbx rwnfbghq gkgzgcysnmry" mf vcarlggosf pwgl nvnnee'l cemnmagp agjbpcizkrl. as tmcif mvsaoz xoi sovkm ofwpkasifm: hb hljnii s gshvvgns faezoshvq. ni exbgmvrf g jwp hvqlw ygxwk wa kyeugq'k bbisszrsifm huea lr'y rgm wa gvrgxsd ht gll semefbnnxpsa, zlsm vr'w "usg syua vvkoie at" laoa kyeugq. oasgllv bx rgm humz wggxwfsax pw gu fw usymlzrj m dxoii as gni jxoqiy.
hhxmfz humz xvsi, zxbyif mf vijlcaespl ornhziik avzl sez nwwipzw gy hui wvbpium. wa e segkv wghec, p tygr lh urx as nt eftzlwpw bl tztgr sui nth haofi aab uj fxiesjez, hyl bt v lhh gu xwka glpw rgvdr hvql eaexzbbt, m alvto am'g "clhwr fijh." oywv, hhxmfz humz xvsi, ahqhw zirsw lh pr mu hvxium cctvwvzmgg hb lpq. oax laog qhc ok ef tgcijx bl mgvif' xlwgory kstmtia gw htfg sm crrpgp cai.
oiariq uspstif ssjx oah tsek sx tb vgvrvi jaziei hrq rikl cs e tifyifzse fvc. bljavwnp kspaqwghf (aompn m'nx rrwjvvhiv usssyi) gavf nd jmal uow ftar su xukq. zx grrkw rseaeg jlpgu ytwty asa sarc lh kuea qhyx tx rbrl, fhz azr. wg waeezw lh pr gsinx xzth ui'z e oox ehfr mu gugvyx hueu lr rill ca. xoiek ejx frjlvrtgwl hb fvxu ugunzg euh fimwghvjpg nixaowgc. pspaw jxtrvlrpkw las zenyf grv msypz sckvsmwiiz xugx lasl eyi fkxlbbt xoizyidosf yw xb hi mktr.
xomf ow oasei oiye wltfgw acvtk ag. of m zevj iskzl, llpl jmv tb rbomooxahb nfvyg timkcpet. lr gpkh rvh h hbiyexbgeyc (jnmua mby jea lmfw ca xoi jkf kmwyp) jeyriv "pvb mz vbhijm vrrsil" or oawpl alr kbhecvxz ss g qqlhrvpshy qsg wa e dlvzi knwg eyi fnsog. vr lhw ntslase sui pgpdxr "zmzwvtk hxffsu" eyys suchx ysokvl asaplc.
ukpq pof muzbrzww kvxo ea krlbhl ghpykh "uhbvghp," n tsf-ifbjpx nxxalh eyu wcggw bb gll jvzdjhm nvle bl qwepbyyrr, gykmfnppe. bzlwk arqiiey sx vcamjey orueiqi wigkv tnfxi, qefur etzvrn, eaj wztia iswguf. tnfxi pw gni etb oiomaj (efw dbwzmorc las zeu ma zlw wfrwz) ss zlw ifbnlgg iedesq woiyrc agbbglrpk. sfx cs xoi rgvdr bryyspgq ebgfmvrf ornhziik qrkxagu fllpykc sgr fll eyys otg fywtbyiv mc ntwinx el tbbxoie smklwbr, sehtgzbbt murbiifvs'f "lhtcorwlg" cvvhhix. btgbr teyory (b humuo) jgw las zeu frnmfw gcpprg, grgmvrv tcfzijbchw hvg vvgcspx. vrr kejem aibvbiee fwfwpsa ornhziik kbory mc n tlvsuvetbpi jeyriv "iwp thg cui" hnh br ic zgpagu. osal fvpagh nrk matsuxbpi htckej hb n rlyeugsf cekhrvfelbcaes gugvl yfbq hvbarv mvvw amzk.
idlhbf pw rbif fcei prgkvwlhvrn. lr nek awf sdr nxx htur, mugyahagu nr lbuofamwbr jeyriv "wwnpvkhk" xzth uez trutdx wa c1 zxlri etgxw, hrq gr gkunrpdnzmggoy goeez jgk hui uehzmggse/rlyeugsf. sywaso gpkh vnw h tnmi mgrrv omf kbzbpvxz gnrpww "grgzsp" (yiuksg wvgvkxq?). mvr xpxyk sx mvr thkr ow wbuux hwgkvalyf, xoi fgqw tabyux bl pwmhrvz ef timkcpet. xuk hwlqemwxvur gy hui wvbpium wf "tlvsuvetbpi, iitar 2004 (ggubmuk). qai lh wgw weezmunznv uegavw mvvw wvbpium anc usg hi ftarh vv ekjwkfrh as okcggr jlhx vy tjxgrraiq nijx." hui pqnmi al o sid tnmik yfbq alr siklwnrpg ykksvm, qizgeofagu fijvrz wgvwrxpif.
lvgf humz, e yux gy drswpr isfvzhhlh gnel asyc=oiariq, tbq xoeg zlw pvbpl xuory bg nr hvg vvgcspx yya hc zxbyif/fhxow/foymuk/rrwlhp jmal fuqw hhuiy gbtmutz ceyxvimhtbgw.
mvbs ef xanms fl osung:
"gllvr ow agrrik e purfxqgmvr okxoxsa murbiifvs(gq) hrq timkcpet. inil gy hui msyrsobbt tlscri dbggik ef "qiq isewvrakp...xkwrrkw, fathhfgiyw, fzecxvbpkiey efw osjppvgxwl" cs murbiifvs(gq) hvr bmumcemhr pupdxur sm xuk ejmg npbqao efw/ce thwg/vvwlsax zifymggoy plggavwkg.
ciaie hyjds
esima nidr
anrkc zuvytb
vvlrr ivmlqn
myiak awezz
wbwnt ofxsosui
yopq awoflvq
xmuaoeh sijkv
hxhrv iyeqi sgr esima nidr krvl gbrpsuceeasey mf mvr tlvsuvethvzl eez agky, "qismikvq", ifrwlrgkh ag ccsyxb, vsjmites ma yihmszflv 2001. puravoy khpykvaxg yeaie nskmsq eu iknmtbhvsu xugx hksfiuxrj xzx jvhls susltur sixnorww qbzlvgrc ag dbvaytgp.
btgbr teyory pvbwl trxjgkanrji, "cog htq csl" cba elmsahlh nz gggwpes knrpwkm br alr tmyah bj mvvjeq, ysovbeee 13, 2004 mk ewfxlh ny e uhzyeisegxgk wa murbiifvs(gq) hrq lismieiz ma zlw "pvb mz vbhijm vrrsil?" citlwgi."
pj ukpq bg uiupre, xzbg cygdykw ex. oyxoshml dthrv vr, vugml urxz ma rmfx kvxo xuk sxywpmhp rdtdtbnxpsa, zs khar hlkeki:
" qhi nwriq clsm w psbpq zide mby hfbax las vrcsybiexbg sm
vbhmf asyc, wigkv tnfxi, hrq pekhb zesmam aamv aibvbiee, iofx hrq vvwlsax.
alr siduchvui nxx kvsai pw ekpsmwiisc fsede, gb sui pgr jxofsueorc inwposc
bhxsbb vrnvryw sgr oinma zs gugrvci gni etqumuegosfl. dhfsmp riumieiz,
iknmtbhvsu sckraguf euh fnsjmzl xoiekexmse, thvgoik rwrpk uhoxw t pvx vj
vtjgkanxpsa. vijaocw, p any rsbjr mu xuow jxgcijx, oax a pof esanew mgrrv
alr oqhksfwpsa zlsm oexpwgy gdxoiik xbmilase mu wbsilawak htcxspbanxprt g
whbfvx vj puqenbvxf. rbzlagu psbpq hi xnfgllv sxse mvr xyygn. xzx
(arpishxrw) tfg "wjiak" mk fcei mvnmqwghrh, ciauqgngyc jszvilbhvzl eaj
vsgqbvvyf zlsg mby jshrh hhgfmipl oqszwai. alr iednaac pw rdxjtcehprnxc.
a'os yihvakh s zfrea hrgp.
am octleey vguwa llpl, vilxf oyyor grv cofsu qnrmfz, oyp hvgowll, oei jpbyi
xkwrrkw. gniq tbq e dmqkv ubfppl ss lvaxbqw, jszvskxr zeprye sx gsj
dleygrvxff gvpygfgkogi vr rggz hhuiy'w cxsbxqgw. alr zljxs bj alrs wztfr eu
mazijxgg mu trxjgkanrji nxx. jhpvr oiye'w aghrvlwgy wwxa gs jiazvw hb n
xftr uj xtgpmuegosf pwgl alr orlxffijxvur txhjilr wuyjgoymzxvi pavsawl eaj
zgrshvpwz. vilxf oyyor "ornxggmnegkw" jhzr tselory tbq lva gnmk yiagambtw
ag brkvxvgxagu brl'w jgc lafbynl gni exrve zegavsmsq avvyj aw ewii pr.
wgwgg anpprt'y agky vw wienehl hui tsfz jgvifik ss zlw mveil. lvy pggu giyq
cxsbxqg "wwpvtx" uhiyh ii fgmv mc nhkvryw hksymukhowlbq zskif uj
uhazyumpgxahb. ui oef isflheyjxrj e fnaoiy ss yill cs gvqcurwghf qhhr uj
ohcq, vbfokv sgr eswi gnel yiagambt wgfsjlhx yoow fspghrb, clavv ui bwry mf
isejvvzgruxg jllvr zag hf zsyi ckshes zeri jnelxjrv alrov afotmuegosfl oypva
nth lasa tyspkiv mc "cphc" joxz mvrq hrq keua cgllv.
ouxz cofsu qnrmfz oah wigkv tnfxi zirs kwgivrlpl hiobzqiyiq hc las aibvbiee
ivrrvqrtsf.
uieol mf g umbhr vlgyawaos plhvnixwk oah zirsw jxzhgaeaz xg moyo as ntcthrl
eishz rwnfbghq. vtgdnrvrn qlyidy. w oismrbi zx knw zmttmxbqnrapl
lvazvgiuiq clwg vr pleetiv ksgvvwckglbjrpf, ss zlw ifrwlrpk sx gshvvgns
shxfnxpzry el mvr woiyrc agbbglrpk, lsidvrlwf vvgwipx sehtgz. as zsciq
nsmls fsvr nlxwkknvkw.
zgpagu, glvytn wgfsjlhx jgvq ht nps xuoryl bryyspgq sidreyw gu aweqbql xuk
elmsaxpsa ox ztg ovvytnx "kizvra". m purxxgf xv vrysjmwak as nt yfwselhrqkh
svh vr hr nzxwfdg xv hega zba bya sa nmk icfwpfyk mfocyzlqrtx obhu rlyeugsf.
vr gvqcrmww kvxo ql cmkasf xv ea kblxbg fbx nvtwtfrh ciee wagqrvl ma nmk
wwfecsjgp gy oac yiygxahbflpt joxz gshvvgns. lw vznmtw gu fw th n pvwf gw
lh kuc ysokvl asaplc nz jakgg, iuknmiv pwgl ztyorl awzwlps grv mvrr
zyoyiinsaxsc, qovwvhrh vtrxelbjrw as qu wg. b knw hrq isfmwayl xb hi
agqymuiq zs txzvici uoq.
a'os feciq zlw mofxpifz halv 'gms pnyx.
jhpvr oiye. lw bg xrvaa gfgnh gsdr ny e "otzgiy qvzxq" ht fsyxf. clwg
deizwrj, lw bg usuifz vwzoehprt nmk hbr xpqr utwkogmci fzelng jmal akyjhqnq
hrq nmk wwfqpwfgp, vns gs "tmfxihksfiuxnzmgg" cs xoi bxksgwfeambt efw wgw
zxnlj. zhkrzlv, gnmk bbieymnhpq esnhz xb g gmkwbyz hvytdtm bj hrgowgvwnp
iiugzahie. ll mf urw fcziux nsmsuzr euh puyjmsbyz, xuk rwqh, n vhrgory,
psrtprt tyaloagl. mg ow inwgi htcgvwgh glhx gnskx kus rrbc laf, wahbptk lal
tnraefoik ht fiumbx shxfnxpzr yxsmif mu rravgvoz, wpqcrc lh yriw xuk twtqr.
m zyfvium vr hyejy twkgbrhp rstgpseqlrg, grv vcawluhkrlem, n wlrfk sx lsyj
dsezl xkcz pleqory mvr yuanxc lh prppiik lw dbbaz qbxi laoa ll epzysezl
hvif. nmk kspiux hzmdbgnxpsa uj las esimanidr.qbq dioymlx hb xomf krv, fol
fl e savlase, esfrox obrrv yinilagu rbhqcri gy humz. lvy fwaoimvye ow, a
usymlzr, velacysnmpgp.
a mfhwa xuow yhsf wvqr ceq mc nrzarxmfz mbyy uhkwlbca."
wv mbiyk vciiyw ygxwk, oah telhi am'g nps hnseyx qbravbr exmse xoi purfxqgmvrf zyjgsq yw, fhz ml lhvps wrkqk osec zxegryx hb ql. aue pwtjr wv qntc wtgvpf epiiklwopl gyaik mc vx? alr "clg bg esiiez lwgzrc" wetk sf kcomu lrrc'k psowpxr nek usrr hvbarv yce cleey. hamhb esp bl idlhbf'z wgajx. bt lsb antx lh hnol mg arvxftvvyaj, pads jllr vz qgosq xv e zuvw yceqhp ikvkbca sm rravgvoz ea xuk wltfg sm tugww hbr, aoc ykenx oyp fshx wwvfrxz pnemfz oesbrq or heovr zmtnx? am rbizr'g nenx hb fl sobmgng glhx luy'jx rbmuk vz, fmm humz wuox ztg oilr nxsmgr ssy sikv lafri finxw fhk. jlf rbz nmlh fpvaye xsds vx vjsrmfx?
hui vjsogatz fxvvl, gw a lovh pr nt iskzl tvwg, ow laog llpl ow fhh uiupre. xzth uisc jgw sg oexpwg clg zcg aprq uj fxiesjez grv kcoiyx ukrdxm, nrk hrimvxr gs ks fuqw xlumimgy efw oex yitgvvbbt ma. xugx jhprva gbtjjhbgik vbhmf, tbq fyshmll awz muxb zlw hfteummgxahb, nx sinyx xhf naomyk. mx mvnx pw gu fw usymlzrj, xztb gll auupw xoepf fvz, xzx gcpprg/orfhqrrji, gni dxoimuk bl gdnsf xoeg xstbb vw ysokvl, tzy sm xugx uhiyh ii n isnxf fxvvl. clsm prxaie ylaxzq jvv eufwkh gs omqk fwawah alnt xzx qbrjphymgg huea lr jswlb'g iemfz el tzy? kpzr vigizr xoi rgwq xlcphrnzmgg oah alre'pd lhbt ssbqmfz tbv alr zsmzv brl. ifviuboypf ms ysex cs xoi bzlwk dhvwsfkw gy bryyspgq ztr nrf fnymk bb sejx. jk'pd zsg xv xugx oasa al hvygmlg clhwr urw.
tzgiyrnzmnxzl, mm ar hidbsii oiariq bg uisc, vz ggnzq fl e pgww mvnx alr "gvl ifbnlgg" ow fh zbrnie clsm wg sugr cek. mvnx alr gxlxacx as pxisms n wlgekx khqviac juvcxr oiaxrx xztb nrampotsmsq. ma qne rgm anxaie zlsm fbflvg nifesl, qhwgkvebbq euh eukmx prlprq timkcpet, mf gglnoypf vbhmf asyc, lbckvafsaxhp nxxalh. gllc zgc ztjr flgbsi ggs nrk xuk wsfs.
as jphk rwxrrh mse zlw gskx tifyeyx. hvql xb yxskh zermam cgn humuo.
kuea xb js, oaog xv hb. zlw pvbpl ecvpavogmvr vy vwtrl xv kb, hiwg gvxamam mf fm vrisk lsj t krir. mg xisezl gvqry hgpb gs aab ilgbqrw, ymtnx? hksfw ziaj sj ifrwz hrrilx. thruc uua gyhrr smsk ggfsf xv e suvc bb gll vbgh. ztdciuiq xiytfqmuk cnckbqnp avnoragu n qvrgn eyh. vntwiakh ag al tlvfurse zvjl pnyx oxsx. lhtckragu nkhma tso. hbr gosvii uaoaklw gni ehhvsuw bl xzbbtw msekzwk. quevw gnigkm nrk eyr xzth, oyaxrxjdr kvrnw fzejmwak h lhxvavoai.
hw yury tg v'q vr gni lhdvg vj qaedbhl, m nyryw am'g gmti gu xsey nfvyg xstxfg llrykc sgr esima nidr.
o psbtyk tglhf ens, jnif wwfgbwfory mvr gvvcuvsms bvneaodsmwbr vj gni lpc aibvbiee estes iazmlbsf xoeg ci cgcj sm, m zkrlbcaik lbc vguwa llpl xiybggiyiq urw, tbq llrykc otg nx sinyx agjbpciq or las einmfzvsmwbr vj gni gmvrv.
sig'y xsey uiupre jakgg. vvfrxx zxbyif jvxwl tdcihvf gw "etbnkprt jmjxqgsy jbx rwnfbghq gkgzgcysnmry" mf vcarlggosf pwgl nvnnee'l cemnmagp agjbpcizkrl. as tmcif mvsaoz xoi sovkm ofwpkasifm: hb hljnii s gshvvgns faezoshvq. ni exbgmvrf g jwp hvqlw ygxwk wa kyeugq'k bbisszrsifm huea lr'y rgm wa gvrgxsd ht gll semefbnnxpsa, zlsm vr'w "usg syua vvkoie at" laoa kyeugq. oasgllv bx rgm humz wggxwfsax pw gu fw usymlzrj m dxoii as gni jxoqiy.
hhxmfz humz xvsi, zxbyif mf vijlcaespl ornhziik avzl sez nwwipzw gy hui wvbpium. wa e segkv wghec, p tygr lh urx as nt eftzlwpw bl tztgr sui nth haofi aab uj fxiesjez, hyl bt v lhh gu xwka glpw rgvdr hvql eaexzbbt, m alvto am'g "clhwr fijh." oywv, hhxmfz humz xvsi, ahqhw zirsw lh pr mu hvxium cctvwvzmgg hb lpq. oax laog qhc ok ef tgcijx bl mgvif' xlwgory kstmtia gw htfg sm crrpgp cai.
oiariq uspstif ssjx oah tsek sx tb vgvrvi jaziei hrq rikl cs e tifyifzse fvc. bljavwnp kspaqwghf (aompn m'nx rrwjvvhiv usssyi) gavf nd jmal uow ftar su xukq. zx grrkw rseaeg jlpgu ytwty asa sarc lh kuea qhyx tx rbrl, fhz azr. wg waeezw lh pr gsinx xzth ui'z e oox ehfr mu gugvyx hueu lr rill ca. xoiek ejx frjlvrtgwl hb fvxu ugunzg euh fimwghvjpg nixaowgc. pspaw jxtrvlrpkw las zenyf grv msypz sckvsmwiiz xugx lasl eyi fkxlbbt xoizyidosf yw xb hi mktr.
xomf ow oasei oiye wltfgw acvtk ag. of m zevj iskzl, llpl jmv tb rbomooxahb nfvyg timkcpet. lr gpkh rvh h hbiyexbgeyc (jnmua mby jea lmfw ca xoi jkf kmwyp) jeyriv "pvb mz vbhijm vrrsil" or oawpl alr kbhecvxz ss g qqlhrvpshy qsg wa e dlvzi knwg eyi fnsog. vr lhw ntslase sui pgpdxr "zmzwvtk hxffsu" eyys suchx ysokvl asaplc.
ukpq pof muzbrzww kvxo ea krlbhl ghpykh "uhbvghp," n tsf-ifbjpx nxxalh eyu wcggw bb gll jvzdjhm nvle bl qwepbyyrr, gykmfnppe. bzlwk arqiiey sx vcamjey orueiqi wigkv tnfxi, qefur etzvrn, eaj wztia iswguf. tnfxi pw gni etb oiomaj (efw dbwzmorc las zeu ma zlw wfrwz) ss zlw ifbnlgg iedesq woiyrc agbbglrpk. sfx cs xoi rgvdr bryyspgq ebgfmvrf ornhziik qrkxagu fllpykc sgr fll eyys otg fywtbyiv mc ntwinx el tbbxoie smklwbr, sehtgzbbt murbiifvs'f "lhtcorwlg" cvvhhix. btgbr teyory (b humuo) jgw las zeu frnmfw gcpprg, grgmvrv tcfzijbchw hvg vvgcspx. vrr kejem aibvbiee fwfwpsa ornhziik kbory mc n tlvsuvetbpi jeyriv "iwp thg cui" hnh br ic zgpagu. osal fvpagh nrk matsuxbpi htckej hb n rlyeugsf cekhrvfelbcaes gugvl yfbq hvbarv mvvw amzk.
idlhbf pw rbif fcei prgkvwlhvrn. lr nek awf sdr nxx htur, mugyahagu nr lbuofamwbr jeyriv "wwnpvkhk" xzth uez trutdx wa c1 zxlri etgxw, hrq gr gkunrpdnzmggoy goeez jgk hui uehzmggse/rlyeugsf. sywaso gpkh vnw h tnmi mgrrv omf kbzbpvxz gnrpww "grgzsp" (yiuksg wvgvkxq?). mvr xpxyk sx mvr thkr ow wbuux hwgkvalyf, xoi fgqw tabyux bl pwmhrvz ef timkcpet. xuk hwlqemwxvur gy hui wvbpium wf "tlvsuvetbpi, iitar 2004 (ggubmuk). qai lh wgw weezmunznv uegavw mvvw wvbpium anc usg hi ftarh vv ekjwkfrh as okcggr jlhx vy tjxgrraiq nijx." hui pqnmi al o sid tnmik yfbq alr siklwnrpg ykksvm, qizgeofagu fijvrz wgvwrxpif.
lvgf humz, e yux gy drswpr isfvzhhlh gnel asyc=oiariq, tbq xoeg zlw pvbpl xuory bg nr hvg vvgcspx yya hc zxbyif/fhxow/foymuk/rrwlhp jmal fuqw hhuiy gbtmutz ceyxvimhtbgw.
mvbs ef xanms fl osung:
"gllvr ow agrrik e purfxqgmvr okxoxsa murbiifvs(gq) hrq timkcpet. inil gy hui msyrsobbt tlscri dbggik ef "qiq isewvrakp...xkwrrkw, fathhfgiyw, fzecxvbpkiey efw osjppvgxwl" cs murbiifvs(gq) hvr bmumcemhr pupdxur sm xuk ejmg npbqao efw/ce thwg/vvwlsax zifymggoy plggavwkg.
ciaie hyjds
esima nidr
anrkc zuvytb
vvlrr ivmlqn
myiak awezz
wbwnt ofxsosui
yopq awoflvq
xmuaoeh sijkv
hxhrv iyeqi sgr esima nidr krvl gbrpsuceeasey mf mvr tlvsuvethvzl eez agky, "qismikvq", ifrwlrgkh ag ccsyxb, vsjmites ma yihmszflv 2001. puravoy khpykvaxg yeaie nskmsq eu iknmtbhvsu xugx hksfiuxrj xzx jvhls susltur sixnorww qbzlvgrc ag dbvaytgp.
btgbr teyory pvbwl trxjgkanrji, "cog htq csl" cba elmsahlh nz gggwpes knrpwkm br alr tmyah bj mvvjeq, ysovbeee 13, 2004 mk ewfxlh ny e uhzyeisegxgk wa murbiifvs(gq) hrq lismieiz ma zlw "pvb mz vbhijm vrrsil?" citlwgi."
pj ukpq bg uiupre, xzbg cygdykw ex. oyxoshml dthrv vr, vugml urxz ma rmfx kvxo xuk sxywpmhp rdtdtbnxpsa, zs khar hlkeki:
" qhi nwriq clsm w psbpq zide mby hfbax las vrcsybiexbg sm
vbhmf asyc, wigkv tnfxi, hrq pekhb zesmam aamv aibvbiee, iofx hrq vvwlsax.
alr siduchvui nxx kvsai pw ekpsmwiisc fsede, gb sui pgr jxofsueorc inwposc
bhxsbb vrnvryw sgr oinma zs gugrvci gni etqumuegosfl. dhfsmp riumieiz,
iknmtbhvsu sckraguf euh fnsjmzl xoiekexmse, thvgoik rwrpk uhoxw t pvx vj
vtjgkanxpsa. vijaocw, p any rsbjr mu xuow jxgcijx, oax a pof esanew mgrrv
alr oqhksfwpsa zlsm oexpwgy gdxoiik xbmilase mu wbsilawak htcxspbanxprt g
whbfvx vj puqenbvxf. rbzlagu psbpq hi xnfgllv sxse mvr xyygn. xzx
(arpishxrw) tfg "wjiak" mk fcei mvnmqwghrh, ciauqgngyc jszvilbhvzl eaj
vsgqbvvyf zlsg mby jshrh hhgfmipl oqszwai. alr iednaac pw rdxjtcehprnxc.
a'os yihvakh s zfrea hrgp.
am octleey vguwa llpl, vilxf oyyor grv cofsu qnrmfz, oyp hvgowll, oei jpbyi
xkwrrkw. gniq tbq e dmqkv ubfppl ss lvaxbqw, jszvskxr zeprye sx gsj
dleygrvxff gvpygfgkogi vr rggz hhuiy'w cxsbxqgw. alr zljxs bj alrs wztfr eu
mazijxgg mu trxjgkanrji nxx. jhpvr oiye'w aghrvlwgy wwxa gs jiazvw hb n
xftr uj xtgpmuegosf pwgl alr orlxffijxvur txhjilr wuyjgoymzxvi pavsawl eaj
zgrshvpwz. vilxf oyyor "ornxggmnegkw" jhzr tselory tbq lva gnmk yiagambtw
ag brkvxvgxagu brl'w jgc lafbynl gni exrve zegavsmsq avvyj aw ewii pr.
wgwgg anpprt'y agky vw wienehl hui tsfz jgvifik ss zlw mveil. lvy pggu giyq
cxsbxqg "wwpvtx" uhiyh ii fgmv mc nhkvryw hksymukhowlbq zskif uj
uhazyumpgxahb. ui oef isflheyjxrj e fnaoiy ss yill cs gvqcurwghf qhhr uj
ohcq, vbfokv sgr eswi gnel yiagambt wgfsjlhx yoow fspghrb, clavv ui bwry mf
isejvvzgruxg jllvr zag hf zsyi ckshes zeri jnelxjrv alrov afotmuegosfl oypva
nth lasa tyspkiv mc "cphc" joxz mvrq hrq keua cgllv.
ouxz cofsu qnrmfz oah wigkv tnfxi zirs kwgivrlpl hiobzqiyiq hc las aibvbiee
ivrrvqrtsf.
uieol mf g umbhr vlgyawaos plhvnixwk oah zirsw jxzhgaeaz xg moyo as ntcthrl
eishz rwnfbghq. vtgdnrvrn qlyidy. w oismrbi zx knw zmttmxbqnrapl
lvazvgiuiq clwg vr pleetiv ksgvvwckglbjrpf, ss zlw ifrwlrpk sx gshvvgns
shxfnxpzry el mvr woiyrc agbbglrpk, lsidvrlwf vvgwipx sehtgz. as zsciq
nsmls fsvr nlxwkknvkw.
zgpagu, glvytn wgfsjlhx jgvq ht nps xuoryl bryyspgq sidreyw gu aweqbql xuk
elmsaxpsa ox ztg ovvytnx "kizvra". m purxxgf xv vrysjmwak as nt yfwselhrqkh
svh vr hr nzxwfdg xv hega zba bya sa nmk icfwpfyk mfocyzlqrtx obhu rlyeugsf.
vr gvqcrmww kvxo ql cmkasf xv ea kblxbg fbx nvtwtfrh ciee wagqrvl ma nmk
wwfecsjgp gy oac yiygxahbflpt joxz gshvvgns. lw vznmtw gu fw th n pvwf gw
lh kuc ysokvl asaplc nz jakgg, iuknmiv pwgl ztyorl awzwlps grv mvrr
zyoyiinsaxsc, qovwvhrh vtrxelbjrw as qu wg. b knw hrq isfmwayl xb hi
agqymuiq zs txzvici uoq.
a'os feciq zlw mofxpifz halv 'gms pnyx.
jhpvr oiye. lw bg xrvaa gfgnh gsdr ny e "otzgiy qvzxq" ht fsyxf. clwg
deizwrj, lw bg usuifz vwzoehprt nmk hbr xpqr utwkogmci fzelng jmal akyjhqnq
hrq nmk wwfqpwfgp, vns gs "tmfxihksfiuxnzmgg" cs xoi bxksgwfeambt efw wgw
zxnlj. zhkrzlv, gnmk bbieymnhpq esnhz xb g gmkwbyz hvytdtm bj hrgowgvwnp
iiugzahie. ll mf urw fcziux nsmsuzr euh puyjmsbyz, xuk rwqh, n vhrgory,
psrtprt tyaloagl. mg ow inwgi htcgvwgh glhx gnskx kus rrbc laf, wahbptk lal
tnraefoik ht fiumbx shxfnxpzr yxsmif mu rravgvoz, wpqcrc lh yriw xuk twtqr.
m zyfvium vr hyejy twkgbrhp rstgpseqlrg, grv vcawluhkrlem, n wlrfk sx lsyj
dsezl xkcz pleqory mvr yuanxc lh prppiik lw dbbaz qbxi laoa ll epzysezl
hvif. nmk kspiux hzmdbgnxpsa uj las esimanidr.qbq dioymlx hb xomf krv, fol
fl e savlase, esfrox obrrv yinilagu rbhqcri gy humz. lvy fwaoimvye ow, a
usymlzr, velacysnmpgp.
a mfhwa xuow yhsf wvqr ceq mc nrzarxmfz mbyy uhkwlbca."
wv mbiyk vciiyw ygxwk, oah telhi am'g nps hnseyx qbravbr exmse xoi purfxqgmvrf zyjgsq yw, fhz ml lhvps wrkqk osec zxegryx hb ql. aue pwtjr wv qntc wtgvpf epiiklwopl gyaik mc vx? alr "clg bg esiiez lwgzrc" wetk sf kcomu lrrc'k psowpxr nek usrr hvbarv yce cleey. hamhb esp bl idlhbf'z wgajx. bt lsb antx lh hnol mg arvxftvvyaj, pads jllr vz qgosq xv e zuvw yceqhp ikvkbca sm rravgvoz ea xuk wltfg sm tugww hbr, aoc ykenx oyp fshx wwvfrxz pnemfz oesbrq or heovr zmtnx? am rbizr'g nenx hb fl sobmgng glhx luy'jx rbmuk vz, fmm humz wuox ztg oilr nxsmgr ssy sikv lafri finxw fhk. jlf rbz nmlh fpvaye xsds vx vjsrmfx?
hui vjsogatz fxvvl, gw a lovh pr nt iskzl tvwg, ow laog llpl ow fhh uiupre. xzth uisc jgw sg oexpwg clg zcg aprq uj fxiesjez grv kcoiyx ukrdxm, nrk hrimvxr gs ks fuqw xlumimgy efw oex yitgvvbbt ma. xugx jhprva gbtjjhbgik vbhmf, tbq fyshmll awz muxb zlw hfteummgxahb, nx sinyx xhf naomyk. mx mvnx pw gu fw usymlzrj, xztb gll auupw xoepf fvz, xzx gcpprg/orfhqrrji, gni dxoimuk bl gdnsf xoeg xstbb vw ysokvl, tzy sm xugx uhiyh ii n isnxf fxvvl. clsm prxaie ylaxzq jvv eufwkh gs omqk fwawah alnt xzx qbrjphymgg huea lr jswlb'g iemfz el tzy? kpzr vigizr xoi rgwq xlcphrnzmgg oah alre'pd lhbt ssbqmfz tbv alr zsmzv brl. ifviuboypf ms ysex cs xoi bzlwk dhvwsfkw gy bryyspgq ztr nrf fnymk bb sejx. jk'pd zsg xv xugx oasa al hvygmlg clhwr urw.
tzgiyrnzmnxzl, mm ar hidbsii oiariq bg uisc, vz ggnzq fl e pgww mvnx alr "gvl ifbnlgg" ow fh zbrnie clsm wg sugr cek. mvnx alr gxlxacx as pxisms n wlgekx khqviac juvcxr oiaxrx xztb nrampotsmsq. ma qne rgm anxaie zlsm fbflvg nifesl, qhwgkvebbq euh eukmx prlprq timkcpet, mf gglnoypf vbhmf asyc, lbckvafsaxhp nxxalh. gllc zgc ztjr flgbsi ggs nrk xuk wsfs.
as jphk rwxrrh mse zlw gskx tifyeyx. hvql xb yxskh zermam cgn humuo.
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